Drunk

Random Youtube-ing.

Watching the seconds tick by. No plans for tonight.

This shall be my reward, from myself, to myself, for myself.

Absolute isolation. Peace of mind.

Tanya Chua's 無底洞 (Bottomless Pit) playing in the background.

Next up : Kenny G's The Moment.

Tonight's a good night for Wet Wet Wet.

Maybe a Kiss From A Rose by Seal is worth a minute or three.

And to end it with a bang, Prodigy's Breathe always does the trick.


Love being post call.

Hey world,

Was that you who just flashed by?

Oh, yeah, well, you know........kinda wonky now, you know? Like, hahaha........hmm.....

Oh ya, EOD right? Yeah.....no biggie.......


Spontaneity is the word of the day.

No thought has been given to the fine trimmings of this post.

Consider this the raw, uncut, unrated Missing Mind.

Hey......waichaminute.....yeah, I kinda soound more decent than I thought I would, being drunk and all.....what the heck....

Hmm.

Just glad all work's done before leaving. Done, I hope. Dunno. Too blur to find out.

Here's to the on call people today.

Have a safe night k.

Zzzzzzzzzz

Zzzzzz

Zzzz

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...........................

Horror ARRRGGG!!!!!!!!

The only reason I'm sharing this here is because I am scared shitless.

And I have not been this scared since watching 'It' with the lights off 18 years ago.

So here.

xxxxxx

Had a little scare at work today.

Yangon was complaining of a 'nagging, life-threatening, ass-ripping' pain over her left or right arm ( cannot remember coz didn't bother looking) following the H1N1 vaccine shot she took a few days earlier.

Associated with 'oedema of the palm' and ' neuroprexia of the cutaneous distribution of C7 to T1'. Yowzers.

Anyway.....

It was 510pm. In severe post call mode and not giving a damn about the world, lest the ward and whatever going-on's going on there.

Bumped into Yangon in the pantry. Brushed pass her to pick up whatever leftover there was before making my great escape to freedom.

'Teeeeeeeeeeeeh~~'

NO.

' Maaii haand iz sooww paaiinnfuuu~~............'

I DON"T CARE.

' u knooaaow, lasst taiimme I oso had saiime thing lidis befoourr, and I dowwnt knooaow, like blahblahgebegebewilliwillibangbangwonkidonkichiangchiangoldnewspaperwoooo...........................................'

BLANK STARE INTO BEYOND.

'Annd then, yoouw knooaow, I havvee allerrgeee to thiis and thhat and williwilliwonkablamgushslipslapslopchoochoodingdongmeowoof.................................'

START ERRATIC PACING AROUND, TRYING TO CONTAIN SANITY.

'Can yoouuww see arr here here here all swaoolleenn oohh...whaaii you walkin around soo muuchh cannot see llaaa...........'

THAT'S MY WHOLE EFFING POINT.

'.....I cannoot see youur face laaa.......'

STOP DEAD. GAVE MY BEST RENDITION OF ' I DON"T GIVE TWO EFFS' FACE.


As light as a.....feather? She gave a light push on my chest and said (?coyly)....

' it's okaaaayy....I knoaow you're nervousss....... :)'

And as fleeting as a ?butterfly she fluttered off in a burst of song and waving body parts.



NO EFFING WAY. NO NO NO NO NOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!

DARLING

READ THE FACE AGAIN.

THAT'S NAUSEAOUS. N-A-U-S-E-A-O-U-S.

DIG?

NERVOUS MY ASS.


My day just got destroyed. Now I'm breaking a cold sweat and having goosebumps all over. Think I'm running a fever too.

Considering EL tomorrow. Need to see a shrink.


The horror...........

Doggy Style 2.0

A few more doggy style pics.

Woof.

'Fooood!!!'

Chocolate....... :(

Woof.

Lfe is 2 shrt

Just came back from yamcha with high school buddies.

Everybody has grown up so much.

Each of them now successful in their own right.

And each having a personal story to tell.


Learnt how one of them lost both his sister and father back-to-back within almost the same year.

Sister to a ruptured ectopic pregnancy; dad to cancer (I think)

Felt infinitely sorry for his loss.

At awe at his resilience in standing up against such odds and persevered to become the success story that he is today.

The time to live is now, that's the motto he lives by nowadays.

No point pondering about the future when all that we hold dear can be lost forever in a split of a second.



Life is too short.

No time to wait.

There's a saying - Life starts at 40.

I say, why take the chance?


The time to live, is now.

Sit back, hold tight, and enjoy the ride.

Doggy Style

Refuse to talk bout work today.

Finally one pathetic weekend off after god knows how many weeks of slave labor. Bleerrggh.

Not to mention playing vampire again on behalf of you-know-who who decided to go MIA on her very own terms half way through the day.

Oh snap, just rambled bout work again. My bad.

Today shall be Doggy day.

A four legged tribute to cuddliness.

Enough with the words. Let the pictures do the talking.

Wooof.








Wooof.

Old man syndrome

Back from hitting the mill.

Panting like a dog. Smell like one too.

Feeling slighty better than just now. Not exactly energized, though. Something's still missing.


Oh ya, its my iPhone/ iPod WTF. :(

Running without Prodigy on was painful. Without the music to pace myself to I find myself losing momentum and breath at a much faster rate than before. Britney Spears crooning ' Baby One More Time..' over the stereo doesn't help this one effing bit.

Didn't manage to cover much ground today -barely hitting a few km before the fatigue got to me. Feeling like an old man inside out. Just notice my hairline is receding and losing density at an alarming rate.

Damn it being old at 26 is bad enough; being old AND hairless is just effin pathetic.

I really should consider this BaWang thingy I saw at KK mart that day. Wonder if it really works. Not exactly sure I want a hairdo like Jacky Chan though. Hmmm decisions decisions.....


I need my music back.

Or at least a stupid phone for the time being.

On call tomorrow. Without a phone muahahaha.

I sooo can see this coming - Pt GM 100 s/c actrapid 500 unit stat given. Dr Teh noted, uncontactable x 1,000,000 WTF.


I foresee a really bad day ahead.

Pray for me if you ever want to read anything new here ever again.

FML

Run

Left work at 6 today.

Had to cover for an insufferable-excuse-of-a-houseman who blatantly decided that she shall NOT be taking any 6pm bloods for her cubicle's patients even thought boss explicitly ordered all of us to do so.

Ended up playing vampire on her behalf so that Belle won't end up with deep fried ass for dinner tonight. Poor thing.

Still miss my phone. Forgot how many times today when I reached into my pocket for my phone only to find the cold emptiness greeting my hand. Sigh.

Well, at least no pharmacists to hound me for improper prescriptions today.

Feeling abit low today. Tried to have a hearty dinner but the waitress forgot two out of the four items I ordered so feeling kinda half empty now.

Somehow coming down with this feeling that the world is out to get me or something. If there is a god I can surely say that I'm not exactly his favorite person on earth right now I guess.


Another Chinese auntie passed away in the ward today. Terminally ill patient who came in with one leg already into the coffin. CPRed for 10 minutes before the family gave us the greenlight to stop. ' Don't add to her suffering,' her son said. Solemnly stepped down from the bed so that they could say their final goodbyes. Felt like shit - mainly because I felt absolutely nothing. Just another passing on to scratch down the notch. Another death summary to do. Hoo- Hum.

I'm losing my humanity. Fangs and tiny horns are starting to sprout out of my head and the last time I checked I'm growing a forked tail.

I need to run. Run away from this condition that's consuming me.


Well I guess running away from work isn't exactly practical or ethically acceptable now in view of the current workforce shortage so........ah darn.

I guess I'll just have to stick to running on the mill for now.

Hope that at speed 10 my soul can break free from this earthly form it has been entrapped in, and disembark on an epic journey to find true happiness in the far beyond.

Gonna hit the threadmill now.

See you at 11pm. Godspeed with you, and me.